Nathalia's Life

I’m an 8th grade student at a bilingual school in San Diego California. I’m creative and have a unique imagination. Somethings I like is the movie “The Nightmares Before Christmas”, Hello Kitty, anime, but mostly drawing and painting because they both have helped me be more open and it also helped me be more positive. They’ve also helped me get things out of my mind that stress or get me anxious.

I love nature and the outdoors, they make me feel happy and be positive. When I look out my window and see that its sunny day it makes me feel motivated for the rest of the day.

“You have to be grateful for what you have never be ungrateful”

Gustav Åhr (Lil Peep) MONTREALITY Interview

Ive liked painting and drawing since I was little but I never had the chance to paint but when I got older I started learning more about paintings, art, also how to paint and draw more detailed. Then I started using my drawing skills to express myself and how I felt. And even though I’m not the best at painting, I think Im grate at making unique canvases.

“Every canvas is a journey all its own.”
Helen Frankenthaler

“Painting is just another way of keeping a dairy
Pablo Picasso

My Expression With Music

Music has been a huge part of my life, its pretty complicated because I usually, well mostly use music to express myself since I usually have a hard time expressing my self to people and talking to other people. My music taste is very uncommon in my opinion, I like a lot of genres like alternative rock, indie, hip hop, rap, old school hip hop, heavy metal, punk rock, and new wave. Music has really helped me through a lot, I honestly don’t know where I would be without music. I mostly grew up listening to new wave because of my parents, some of my favorite new wave artists are Depeche Mode, Tears For Fears, Duran Duran, When In Rome, and David Bowie. Its almost like I have different types of genres for each mood I have, I could be listening to Metallica then a hour later I could be listening to Kid Cudi. Most of the time I listen to indie or hip hop music to keep myself happy and peaceful. Some of my favorite artists are Kid Cudi, Lil Peep, Lil Uzi Vert, Frank Ocean, and Tyler The Creator. I have discovered a lot of songs mostly because of my older brothers.

My Experiences In Life

When I was younger I always believed life was an amazing place and that the world is always about happiness and full of happy friendships. But when I got older and started to realize the world isn’t always happy and not full of happy and fun friendships. When I started my first year in middle I really was looking forward to it but as time went on, my friendship with a girl I was really close to, ended in a very unfortunate way which hurt for a while but I got over it .

Since I’ve always been a really shy person my whole life it was really hard for me to fit in with people in middle school because since I was new and everyone knew each other from before, I never wanted to bother the friendships people already had with others. But when time passed by I met the nicest people ever but I also unfortunately lost them this year. This year has probably been my least favorite since 2017, I let a lot of things get to me which caused me to get stressed and anxious. Most of the problems that caused it was people judging me. As much as I love my family they’ve always seemed to judge me, but I just brush everything off like if its nothing but little did I know, that would make it worse. The beginning of this year I started feeling more anxious than I usually was, I started getting anxiety attacks when I was in crowded places. Then I started hanging out with less people which made me less stressful but I sure did miss all my friends I had before. I started getting called loner, depressed, and more I just ignored it. I would always lock myself in the restroom and cry I would also starve myself but I was pretty used to not eating because I always had that problem since I was a little kid.

Now, I am better even though I sometimes do get flashbacks of all of the negative things that happened in my life. I try my best to have a positive mindset everyday but I sometimes don’t succeed on it. I am very proud of myself because I got through some of the things by myself, well most of it.

Careers

I honestly see my self like in a fashion or designing career because of how much I like fashion and clothes. My dream job has changed a lot over the past years. I remember I wanted to be a teacher when I was little, which I now wonder I chose that because my patience with little kids is very low. Then I remember when I was getting older I wanted a basic or normal job, like working at a store or a super market. But when I started learning more about clothes, I wanted to do my own clothing store, and still. I think to have a career your really looking forward to, you need responsibility and work hard for it.

My Future Career

The info that I got on CA career zone, I wasn’t really expecting what I got. It was about cooking/chef and engineer. I was expecting it to be somewhere around designing and clothing I guess. It honestly changed my thinking and idea about what will actually be my future career. I started thinking outside the box and learning more about what I wanted for my future career, and maybe it will lead me more to my future. Something that is still confusing and wondering me is, since I have a pretty bipolar personality and mindset I wonder if fashion and designing career will be still be my dream career in the future.

My Experience In Eighth Grade

This year was one of my stressful years in school, but there was one class in particular that I felt comfortable in, English class. Sounds pretty surprising for some people, but that class really taught me a lot. Walking into English class gave me positivity and made me feel welcomed, also the way the teacher taught the class was very understandable. It didn’t just teach me typical English stuff but it also made me learn more about myself. One of my favorite projects I had to do was probably my monster project, it was a very fun experience for me.

This year I also had a lot of struggles with my classes like I wouldn’t put effort and wouldn’t complete my assignments on time or just not doing them. Which I absolutely regret doing those decisions but most of time I would also not do them because I didn’t understand, thinking about it now I should’ve asked for help instead of just not doing them. Working with people and in groups was always difficult because I felt like I was the one nobody wanted to work with.

“This year has really taught me a lot, from negative to positive things.” – Nathalia